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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY my 1day different SIS !


( pic taken years ago =x)

less than 24hours will me my birthday.
but i am not looking forward to it.
NOT bcos i am having my prelims.
things are changing year after year
it might be a fulfilling bd this yr.
but it changed when time goes by.
no one can predict what will happen next
but i know that no matter what,
i wont hate anyone in my life.
hatred doesn't make one life better too.
i can be strong outside
but i am fragile ok.
anyone who gone through what i am going through now,
wont feel any better.
dont be selfish to me pls.
i dont know what you want
neither do i know what i want.
i don't expect anything doesn't mean to make your life miserable.
cos who am i to expect anymore things now.

when you are determined to choose this path,
you must be strong to face the consequences.
overall,
i am counted good le ok.
who will ever want to contact someone who hurt her
who will ever want to know how he is doing
who will ever console someone who ever make her cry
but i do want to know how have you been doing.
it hurts to know the truth
but i still choose wanting to know.
you might be having a hard time
but do you understand what i am facing too ?
between us,
i am the one who hurt most.
i dont know if u know
but my emotion are killing me.
try being in my shoe.
i believe it wont be good.
maybe when you were who i am now,
then u will understand ba.



baby, it's not the time yet.



it hurts more than ever.



IT IS THE MOST SCARY EVER !
my first time encountered in such a scary thing in my life.
had an accident today. =(
my dad drove me to school today.
& something happened. ..
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"bang bang"
ACCIDENT !!
an inattentive driver drove a lorry,
speeding along the high way
&&
he fall asleep when driving la.
WTH !
he crashed his lorry onto my dad car several times.
people "bang" one time jiu stop liao.
but him ..
continuously la!
and i was sitting at the back.
it was the worst lo.
even now,
my heart beat so fast can.
my dad said if the back of the car was not so wide,
the lorry will have "bang" onto me.
luckily ..
if not i think now i will be in the hospital le.

I THINK I AM SUPER SUAY !!
but still got abit heng cos my life is not in danger =)



shall i delete my blog?
hahah.



i finally got myself to struggle till today.
but i dont know how long can i continue this.
you wanted me to have your importance in my life.
but to you?
i am no longer a person you need ba?
i found out something today.
do you know how sad am i?
i tend not to understand things le.
i just wish i could hide myself somewhere ..
without troubles.

i wish to make myself to hate u.
maybe it will make me feel better ba?



went home right after school.
actually meeting ervin for some outing.
but his lesson delay.
but nvm.
saw JINGYI !
ohmygosh!!
i missed her so much la.
she is still as friendly as ever.
had so much talk with her.
from school till home.
so so long can?
hahahah!
if i am able to enter NP,
she will leave NP for further studies le.

&& I'm coping well with my emotions today !
"katerine" shall be missing my smile. LOL
I think i am hide back my sadness for the time being.
cos Prelims & Olevel are important !
too much encouragement that made me perserve.
YES !
they're the best ok! =p

thanks to my dearest dancemates, JJJ & alot more la.LOL
&
"katerine" miao.
thanks too!
although your care dint show obviously,
i can feel it k =p
shall have story telling time when i am feeling good!
LALA!

study time. BYE !

p.s: cheer up ! remember your promise =p



MiaoHua, Shirley etc ... hahhaha
I knew you concerned about me at times.
but this times i might be emo in class.
I will be alright soon de.
Not i dont want to say what happen.
But i just dont feel to rank up things.

THanks for being there(:



to everyone that cared for me :
alright babe.
i will get myself back on track de.
dont worry about me.
although u all do not what really happened,
i dont wish to say too.
thanks for all your concern !
i appreciate it!
really.
<3 muacks.

My mood had been rather down this 2 weeks.
I tried to make myself smile.
but until last week,
i eventually cant get myself to do that le.
I wasted these 2 weeks not studying.
I think i really really need to get myself study MORE daily.

I will try to forget my unhappiness =)
thankS!












& I finally understood what she said.